Happy 4th of July!

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Meredith Gibraltar wishes all of her American friends a Happy 4th of July.  Safe travels and good company to you all.

I had a depressing day today.  But I spent about two hours writing Walk with Danger so I am happy with that.  That was in the morning.  The afternoon was hard on me.  I should have listened to Chopin.  I am trying to rest.  It is hard for me.  Never stop fighting!

 

photo credit:  Stephanie McCabie on Unsplash.

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The dilemma … a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about her personal dilemma.  Cheers!

 

I have a dilemma,
a personal dilemma.
I love a good dominant,
but he is controlled by evil.
Controlled in his mind.
I love him but how do I help him?
I allow a stronger good dominant
to help him.  One I trust more.
This stronger one believes in and trusts God.
Slowly I heal.

 

Photo by Gabriel Matula on Unsplash

 

Happy World Poetry Day!

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World Poetry Day is March 21 and was established by UNESCO.  Which is the United Nations Educational, Scientific and Cultural Organization.  Cheers!

Poetry unites all of humanity.  It bridges cultural gaps and unifies all of us.  Therefore the UN has chosen today as World Poetry Day.

Being a poet, this is an important day for me.  I smile.  Yes, I am a poet.  I write often of my anxiety and depression, always with a positive note since I am a positive person.  Today I write about the words that express my feelings and about my anxiety …

 

Words, so beautiful and powerful.
Words that express the depths of my soul.
That expose the long gash of my pain.
Of my struggle.
Of my blackness of soul.
What gives me anxiety?
A childhood trauma that I have forgotten.
But my body remembers.
Remembers all to well the violation of my soul.
So words are my weapon.
I expose the enemy.
That dark black of my soul.
That tainted mass.
But alas!  It wasn’t my fault.
It was his.  The evil in my life.
My babysitter.  The evil blight.
I stand strong.
I stand.  I will prevail.
I will not become my illness.
I will become who I have decided to be.
I have decided to be strong.  A woman alone.
Surrounded by love.
I stand, a woman.  Strong!

Friend…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about a friend.  This person helped her with something she was passionate about and yet they are both so fragile.  Cheers!

I valued your opinion.
So I listened.
Yet I worry for you.
You have shared that sometimes it’s all too much.
Now I worry for you that even I can be too much.
There is always another answer.
Always somewhere else you can live.
Someone else who can be your friend.
I value your opinion.
I value you as a friend.
Be safe.  Be smart.
Don’t give in.
Always keep fighting!

Choices…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about choices.  Cheers!

I am molded by choices.
Sometimes they give me anxiety.
Family has helped me make some choices.
Family has encouraged me to do more!
Choices, choices, choices.
Sometimes my environment gives me a choice.
Sometimes my health limits my choices.
Sometimes I feel that I have no choice.
But today all the choices were right.
Today I chose me.  And my health.
Today I chose self-care and myself.
Today I choose me.
Choose to love yourself.
That’s the most important choice of all!

 

photo credit:  Kaitlyn Baker on Unsplash

My writing journey…

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Meredith Gibraltar shares about her writing journey.  A new book is in the mix!  Cheers!

I just thought that I’d share a little about my new book idea.  It will be a young adult/teen book about a woman who is in college and is saved by a werewolf.  It’s my first paranormal romance!  Go figure!  It will be set in Vancouver.  A mysterious amulet is the key!  The name of this book will maybe be Mia.  Or maybe a catch phrase.  I haven’t decided yet.

I’ve told you before that I write about my life in my books.  So in my second book Abigail, the heroine is writing a new book called Mia about a werewolf.  The idea just popped in my head and so I thought why not!  That will be my next book.  But I hesitate to start it.  I’ll finish Abigail first.

I haven’t started editing Martha yet.  I read somewhere that one should wait three months before editing.  I can understand that since it will give you a fresh look at the book.  It’s hard though.  On top of that I don’t know how much writing I’ll get done!

I was anxious the other day.  Someone wanted a book review of Martha and it hasn’t even been published yet.  This put my whole day out of whack!  I was anxious all day.  My daughter suggested that I just write a summary.  I wrote a quick summary.  But I could add to it.  I may do that.  I’m not sure.  I have to think of what we would write on the back cover of the book when I publish it.  That’s where I’m at with Martha now.

I’m looking to the future.  I entered the first 5000 words of Martha into a contest.  I don’t know if I have any chances of winning.  I’ll know by the end of March whether I won or not.  But I am moving forward and trying out new things.  The biggest worry is finding an editor.  I have one beta reader.  Hopefully she can give me the email addresses of some friends who would also like to be beta readers.  The more the merrier.  Then I seriously have to find an editor.

Never stop fighting…talk about what makes you anxious…just bring it up with a friend or loved one…you don’t have to say it’s your anxiety…they might have an idea about it that you never would have thought about!  Open up…talk to someone…

Cheers!

Photo credit:  Kaitlyn Baker at Unsplash.

Family…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about family.  Cheers!

Family.  What does it mean?
A sense of belonging.
A sense of meaning.
I sit here and think of how I’ve missed your company.
Of the days when I was alone.
Now you are here.  Sharing in my joy.
Sharing in my family.
It gives me strength.
It gives me hope.
Family.
Be strong.
And love.