Courage…a poem

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about courage.  The book is slowly coming along.  I am almost at the end.  Slowly I write.  Cheers!

It takes all my courage

To face my fears.

Sometimes I just hold my breath

And do what I have to do.

Sometimes I bury that fear so deep

That I am not aware of it.

But I fear.  Daily I fear.

Now I trust in myself.

And I trust in God.

That trust runs deep.

No one is interested in me.

No one notices me.

What a relief!

It was all so real before.

But it was like a dream.

Not real.  Real is now.

Real is that no one is interested in me.

No one.  No one.

I am alone.

I come awake…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem for the second section Theo of her book The Dominant.  It is part of a major change in the book and gives a hint to the reason why I am writing this book.  Cheers!

I come awake.

I finally see.

Is it real?  Are you real Theo?

What if it’s all in my mind?

The danger.  The fear.

What if it’s all in my mind?

But.

What if it’s real?!

Can I take the chance

With lives at stake!

Can I take the chance God?

What if it’s real?

I write to heal.

I write to express the inner demons.

The inner demons in my mind.

I write to heal!

May God help me!

I am awake!  I think?!

I write…a poem

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about herself again.  There was a glitch.  I write about writing.

I write.

I am calm.

The words calm me.

I fear and am calm.

I love and am calm.

The belief in the good and love saved me.

Calmed me.  Soothed me.

The words reflect my fear.

The words reflect my love.

Slowly I heal.

 

I am writing one book called The Dominant.  Sections of that book are called Stephan, Theo and The Dominant.  I have decided that my first book will be all three of these sections.  Stephan was not long enough to be a book on it’s own.  Theo is the section that I am writing now.  Stephan was a labor of love.  Theo is all work!  I have put the section The Dominant on hold while I write Theo.  Cheers!

I write…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about herself and writing. Cheers!

I write to free my soul.

I fly with delight.

I am freed of the oppression.

I am freed of the fear.

I fly so high.

I write.

I suffer from anxiety. Much of what I write reflects the fear that I feel in my own life. It also reflects the love that I have felt in my dreams. Cheers!

Fear … a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes another poem from her first book Stephen.  She belongs to NaPoWriMo and writes a poem every day until the last day of April.  She suffers from anxiety and this is shown in the poem.

Fear

I fear.

I tremble.

Will they get me today?

Or will a stay calm and face my fear.

I am guided.

With love and calm I will conquer my fear

and be able to function as always.

I face my fear.

The memories return.

I stay calm and think of you.

You have helped in the past.

I think of you Steve.

I fear less.

Thank you.

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Cheers!