Courage…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about courage.  Cheers!

I stand.

I stand alone.

Courage.  Oh frightened soul.

Courage.

What if they get me today?

What if?

It’s not probable.  Not today.

Courage.

Walk.  Be free.

Courage.

Walk on.  It won’t be today.

Not today.

Walk on.

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My writing journey…

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Meredith Gibraltar speaks of her writing journey.  A teen novel sparked some anxiety.  Slowly she heals.

I had posted before that I was about to read a teen novel.  I hesitated but thought that I too might write teen novels in the future and therefore read the book.  However the character experienced some things in her past that triggered an anxiety attack for me.  I wasn’t even going to read the book and it resonated with me so much.  I didn’t realize it’s affect on me until a couple of days later.  The book brought back memories and made me fear.  I got paranoid and anxious.  I rated my fear and belief in the negative thoughts.  Then I thought of a positive counter statement to help battle the fear.  It helped but I was affected for two days.  Finally I was courageous and faced my fear today.  Then I rewarded myself by going out for coffee.  I had a breakfast sandwich (healthier than cheese cake) and coffee at my favorite coffee shop.  All because of a book that I almost didn’t read.

I will be writing teen novels in the future.  It might be my first short story.  I hesitate to take the focus off my novel to write a short story but maybe it will do some good.  I’ll see.  I wrote about my anxiety in my novel.  It is fiction but reflects some of my life experiences with my anxiety.

Cheers!

My Writing Journey.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes of her writing journey.  She had found some new authors and is enjoying reading them.  She is developing the end of her book too.  Cheers!

I am reading a lot more of Colleen Hoover.  The last book I read of hers was part of the Slammed series.  I am reading it backwards which you shouldn’t do but it’s whats available at the library.  It’s a romance novel of a 21 year old man and an 18 year old girl.  Both have lost their parents and take care of a brother.  The books are very good and the poetry in them I found very good as well.  She is a good writer.  The book I am reading now is about a 17 year old girl.  At first I hesitated not wanting to read a romance of a girl so young but then I remembered that at one point I had thought of writing teen novels.  So I’ll read this book and see how I like it.

I am also reading a lot more of Jude Devereaux.  She had one excellent book about ghosts.  I believe in the paranormal and found the book interesting.  Jude Devereaux’s style is similar to Nora Roberts.  I have read almost all the Nora Roberts books at the library so now have been looking for new authors.  I also read Danielle Steel.  I love romantic novels.  Especially if there is some suspense involved.

My first book Martha is a fiction.  Although it reflects part of my life as I deal with anxiety it is also fiction.  So I am developing the end of the romance.  She falls in love with a man who is kind and compassionate.  An understanding man who understands and accepts her anxiety.  Will the book end with them marrying and living happily ever after?  I don’t think so.  But they will be a couple.  I think Martha will be braver facing the future having someone who cares about her and who she can talk to.

Cheers!

Friends…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about friends.  It is for her book Martha.  Cheers!

I want to tell you everything.

But how can I friend?

I first have to know how you’ll react.

My secrets are so dark.

It will help me heal to tell you.

Do I dare?  Will you protect me when you know?

Will you keep my secret?

Do I dare?

I know you to be a compassionate person.

I know to trust you to a certain degree.

This will test out friendship.

Yes I dare.  In God I trust.

Yes I dare.  Please be worthy!

Courage…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar shares a poem called Courage…it is for her first book Martha.  It hints to some of the dilemmas she faces on a daily basis.  Cheers!

I fear.  I stand.

I stand before my fear, scared.

It takes all my courage to face my fears.

I face my fears with hope and courage.

Everyday is a battle for me.

A battle that requires hope and courage.

I hold my imaginary dagger.

Ready to fight any evil that comes my way.

I now have the tools to fight you.

I think of my dagger and feel the cold steel beneath my fingers.

With my courage I face my fear.

My courage is also my weapon.

With my courage I face my fear.

I stand and do what I know I must.

I feared so much as a child.

Now I heal and work out that fear.

That fear for my life.

That fear of what took place so long ago.

It is hidden deep within me.

Hidden and has lain dormant for so long.

Slowly I heal.  I face that fear.

I have courage and hope.

Courage and hope for the future.

I will heal.

Courage…a poem

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about courage.  The book is slowly coming along.  I am almost at the end.  Slowly I write.  Cheers!

It takes all my courage

To face my fears.

Sometimes I just hold my breath

And do what I have to do.

Sometimes I bury that fear so deep

That I am not aware of it.

But I fear.  Daily I fear.

Now I trust in myself.

And I trust in God.

That trust runs deep.

No one is interested in me.

No one notices me.

What a relief!

It was all so real before.

But it was like a dream.

Not real.  Real is now.

Real is that no one is interested in me.

No one.  No one.

I am alone.