Courage…a poem

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about courage.  The book is slowly coming along.  I am almost at the end.  Slowly I write.  Cheers!

It takes all my courage

To face my fears.

Sometimes I just hold my breath

And do what I have to do.

Sometimes I bury that fear so deep

That I am not aware of it.

But I fear.  Daily I fear.

Now I trust in myself.

And I trust in God.

That trust runs deep.

No one is interested in me.

No one notices me.

What a relief!

It was all so real before.

But it was like a dream.

Not real.  Real is now.

Real is that no one is interested in me.

No one.  No one.

I am alone.

My writing journey…

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Meredith Gibraltar writes about her writing journey.  I have figured out the ending for my  fiction but am still working on the title and the subtitle.  I am slowly progressing though.

I started out with the idea that my book would be three books named Stephen, Theo and The Dominant.  It was meant to be a fiction.  I then started incorporating some of the issues that I face with anxiety and the book took a whole new turn.  Then I thought that I would call the book Martha.  Now I have decided on the end.  I am torn between calling the book Martha or the name of the man that she falls in love with at the end.  I haven’t figured out who that is yet.  I’ll have to see.  While the book followed my footsteps in my healing journey for a chapter, now it will be fiction again based on my experiences in life.  Since it is a romance she will fall in love.  Her journey is the main point of the whole book so I think that I will be calling it Martha.  Then the subtitle becomes very important.  I don’t know what it will be yet.  I will have to wait until I finish the book.

Editing the book is next.  I will send the book to one friend and have her read it.  Then I will send it to the editor.  I haven’t chosen an editor yet.

Then publishing is the most daunting task.  I think that I’ll have to self publish.  I don’t know.  I’ll see when I get to that stage.

Slowly my book advances.  I have to set dates for when I will finish the book to give me incentive.  I’ll do that next.

Until next time…Cheers!

 

I come awake…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem for the second section Theo of her book The Dominant.  It is part of a major change in the book and gives a hint to the reason why I am writing this book.  Cheers!

I come awake.

I finally see.

Is it real?  Are you real Theo?

What if it’s all in my mind?

The danger.  The fear.

What if it’s all in my mind?

But.

What if it’s real?!

Can I take the chance

With lives at stake!

Can I take the chance God?

What if it’s real?

I write to heal.

I write to express the inner demons.

The inner demons in my mind.

I write to heal!

May God help me!

I am awake!  I think?!

I write…a poem

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about herself again.  There was a glitch.  I write about writing.

I write.

I am calm.

The words calm me.

I fear and am calm.

I love and am calm.

The belief in the good and love saved me.

Calmed me.  Soothed me.

The words reflect my fear.

The words reflect my love.

Slowly I heal.

 

I am writing one book called The Dominant.  Sections of that book are called Stephan, Theo and The Dominant.  I have decided that my first book will be all three of these sections.  Stephan was not long enough to be a book on it’s own.  Theo is the section that I am writing now.  Stephan was a labor of love.  Theo is all work!  I have put the section The Dominant on hold while I write Theo.  Cheers!

I write…a poem.

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Meredith Gibraltar writes a poem about herself and writing. Cheers!

I write to free my soul.

I fly with delight.

I am freed of the oppression.

I am freed of the fear.

I fly so high.

I write.

I suffer from anxiety. Much of what I write reflects the fear that I feel in my own life. It also reflects the love that I have felt in my dreams. Cheers!